Is thinking just a chemical reaction in brain tissues or is there something more. How can emotions be real when they are all
supposed to be much the same thing. The human being is basically a machine that does not function.
It was dark and I hard some buzzing in the lavender of the garden. On looking over the wall I saw a bumble bee that was striving to
get some nectar from the flowers.
This year there have been a perfusion of flowers on my 7 varieties of Lavender in the garden.
The bee buzzed to a flower and the weight of the bee made the stalk move down quiet some distance as it landed. The plant has quite
long sturdy stalks with what was in daylight, a few weeks back, a very deep purple flower on it. The colour of the flowers has
relaxed a bit as they come to the end of their season. As the flower bounced back up the bee was thrown and the buzzing intensified.
I could hear it now and not see it as it had dropped a ways into the leafy part of the plant.
It seemed to be struggling a bit now. Like being lost in a wood. the type of thought I can imagine would be:
1) Where am I now?
2) Exactly how did I manage to get here?
3) Hmmm .. ok better get on.
So it went on. The bee did manage to struggle to some flowers with success and buzzed a bit seemingly in pleasure as it did so. I
continued to watch it and listen until my taxi turned up to take me out for the night. My thought about what that bee was doing, in
its death throws were to lead me into discussion with the taxi driver and on went the feeling.
If a human was built like that, with one single overriding purpose, would it not work and do all it could to complete its tasks in
life even to it last breath. If so what in fact are these tasks. Have me changed so much that we no longer can remember how we got
here in the first place? Dark thoughts in a darkheart take control as I now wonder what is it all about.